One year ago today.

EXACTLY one year ago today I was working for a footwear company.

• I was 7 hours away from home.
• I was in 115 degree heat, in a stockroom with NO air conditioning.
• I was miserable.
• I didn't KNOW I was miserable.
• I know that now that I was!

But... What does this mean?

I think it means that in the last year I have come a long way.  I am home more often, I see my family more. I am able to have a puppy in my lap and in my bed each night.  Although I might have stress, I think I am happy.  At least happy with the choice that I made to get my big bootay out of retail!  :)

Taking care of SELF.

I have decided that it is time for me to start a routine that is focused around myself.

Now, I totally understand how self centered that seems, and I promise you that I am not getting all wild and insane.  I promise that my Facebook page does not contain an album of nothing but shots of me from one specific and ultra-flattering angle.  I'm NOT that person.  I promise you.

What I do know if I have neglected personal "care" in the last few years.  Most notably, my hands.

Like the stupid girl I am I thought that I would "magically" have perfect hands and nails once I was no longer trapped in a world filled with boxes.  Sadly this is not the case.  What is now apparent is I have terrible skin, and I am now learning how to better care for this body of terrible skin.

I purchased a giant bag of super AWESOME Epsom Salt that smells like heaven and tonight I soaked for and HOUR AND A HALF!  Oh my goodness, right?!  I also got this hand cream "stuff" that comes with gloves... hopefully this means at some point in my life I will actually have nice soft hands, and get rid of my horrible "retail" hands.

One can always hope, right?

So tonight begins a mini-transformation, time spent on myself.  I don't have much time in the day as it is, so I'm curious when I am going to fit this time in.  I do feel that it is important, so I guess I will be staying up an extra 15 mins each night if I need to.

It's okay... like some commercial has brainwashed me into believing... "I'm worth it". HAHA.

The Outlet of Blogging.

I love blogging, I really do.  Honestly, if this was something that I could do for a living, I think I would be very happy.

I mean, the world would get WAY too many pictures of my dogs, and I think I would need to release some of that insane grip I have on my secrets... but in the end... it would be a very interesting blog to read.

I was thinking about Retail today. 

I don't know why I was thinking about my past life, probably because we are tight for money (yeah, yeah, I know, we always are) and I miss having those BIG checks coming in.  I appreciate things a LOT more now.  Husband and I have been wondering what we were going to do for our One Year Anniversary.  Honestly, we didn't have the money to do anything.  I was hoping for ONE night on the town, get a cheap hotel and just enjoy the night.

The Universe had other plans.

We received a check today from escrow, with just enough money to have a little "mini-vacation" to Vegas.

Thank you Universe.

Interestingly, if I was working in retail, I would have HAD the money to take this vacation... and I probably would have HAD the Paid Vacation... BUT I probably would NOT have been able to get the time off.

Well played Universe.  Way to stick it to the Retail "MAN"... haha

Life is SO interesting sometimes.

The decisions I have made...

Sometimes in life we make good decisions.  

My decision to leave retail = smart.

My decision to start a business = smart.

My decision to get my life back as my own = smart.

My decision to eat more sushi = smart.

Sometimes in life.... we make "bad" decisions, and currently I am struggling with that fact.  Details are irrelivant at this point, but I have been struggling with some paths I have chosen in life.  I use the term "bad" loosely, as often we make decisions that are not BAD, just decisions that we regret, or produce outcomes that we would prefer to avoid.

I am struggling right now.  You hear people talk about the inner-war that happens inside yourself, as if your present state is fighting with your "I told ya so" state.  For me, this causes undue stress and the want to eat and/or sleep constantly. 

It'll get better.  This is know.  I just have to weigh the outcomes of my NEW decisions, and determine what is the best course to take from this point forward. 

Sigh, I think it's a bubble bath and wine sorta night.  What do you all think?

Well, I got sick again.

So I am sorry I have been absent.  Oh my life is insane, and I don't know how it got to that point!

Dog business is coming together.  Thank goodness for the internet!  If you ever need to love something.... Love google.  I can't believe how awesime google is.  Just blows my mind. Lol.

Anyways, I sit on the coaster right now at 8am with a newly downloaded copy of "blogger" on my cell phone.  Hopefully that will help me to blog!!  I can't keep neglecting you internet.  I am awesome, don't you want more of me?

Leaving Retail, to start Retail?

Yeah, you read that right.  HA!

Apparently, I know nothing but retail... and for that reason I have decided that I am going to start a business. Biggest problem at this stage of the game? My Business Partner is in Hawaii.

So, where does that leave me? Many sleepless nights of trying to work through a business plan that is actually going to generate some hefty income. Oh, and yes, I AM still writing my book... I'm just... very tired... all... the... time.

Oh! I am finishing up THREE quilts as well. What is wrong with me?

How on EARTH did I think that I would be able to blog every night with all of this crap going on?

Did I mention that I was sleepy? Like... really really really sleepy? I think having a snuggle doggie right next to me is not helping. He is just making me MORE sleepy.

Well, off I go to work on something else, because I am insane. Yes, you heard me. INSANE.

Dear Mrs. Retail Manager.

Why do you suck so much at blogging??

Why because I am actually starting a business and it's sucking all of my time away from me.  This last week I have spend all of my free time in a fabric shop or in front of my sewing machine!  YIKES.

I think I'm going to go to sleep now. *YAWN*

Don't judge.  I just can't do something everyday for a year.  I failed.

Plus side, I learned a LOT about myself, and I know that I love blogging... and writting... so I'm going to keep up with this blog as best I can.

Enjoy world! Enjoy.